My Story - Tony P

My Story – Tony P

How long have you been clean? 
As of this morning 37 days, with a more peaceful mind.

How has your life changed since you’ve been in recovery?
I have found hope, I have made new friends who I need to do nothing more than be honest with myself and them. I now believe and know that my addiction will no longer rule my life. My wife of 25 years tells me that I am once again the man she married. Every morning I wake up excited for the new day, and my first thought is another day clean and what meeting am I attending today. The wrong voice in my head is much quieter most of the time. I know exactly what to do if the wrong voice talks too much or insists on being too loud I know now that my addiction is a disease not a flaw in my character. Honesty means something once again (That feels really good!) I am grateful, I never really understood or knew what that meant until now. I AM TRULY GRATEFUL FOR NA, MY NEW FOUND FRIENDS AND MY LIFE NOT CONTROLLED BY MY DRUG OF CHOICE. The list goes on Thanks to everyone in NA I have a tremendous amount of respect for everyone that is committed to the best quality of life that being drug free.

How important is it to have a sponsor in your life? 
I just recently found my Sponsor, it was one of the first things I heard that I needed to do when I walked into my first NA meeting. At first I was uncomfortable walking up to a stranger or someone I talked to or listened to in a meeting and to ask someone to take on the task of helping me. I didn’t know who would be the right sponsor for me, I had so many questions and in the beginning I thought that a sponsor was someone you called if you were going to jump off the cliff and use again. As I attended meetings I began to ask my new friends how I choose my sponsor, I really had no clue. Then a friend gave me a suggestion that worked for me. He said find someone that had something I wanted, he gave me examples like the car they drive etc. 

For me it is the length of clean time. I felt that someone clean for a substantial amount of time would most likely have experienced the many trials and challenges that I knew would be coming my way. So I found my sponsor approximately ten days ago, and I am now understanding that a sponsor is so much more than the person you call before you jump off of the cliff. I talk with my sponsor every day, he gives me alternative ways to look at things. He does this with common sense and a dash of humor. Both of which I respect and appreciate.

How long have you been involve in narcotics anonymous service? 
I have only had one opportunity to attend a Detox Center and I really enjoyed the experience. It felt so good to give something back. I am at the very beginning of my recovery and I feel like the majority of the time I am taking so much more than I am giving and that feels selfish to me. I want to get involved in H&I so I can give back that what I have received so kindly.

Tell us about your home group? 
Mine is The No matter what club that meets every Monday, Tuesday and Friday. It was the first meeting I walked into on a Friday morning after being up all night in a state of confusion and not knowing what to do. I only was sure that I have a problem and all of my efforts on my own were not working. That first meeting everyone was so kind and supportive, many offered suggestions like people places and thing, and if I could get clean anyone can. A friend at that meeting gave me the basic text as a Christmas present, (best Christmas present I ever received)

My home group celebrates my success with me, they encourage me, they don’t judge me, and they are truly some of the finest people I have ever met. The name of my home group inspires me. The No Matter What Club. To me it means that no matter what I am not using again, No matter what this disease will not control my life anymore, as I have a home in the No Matter What Club my friends there do not judge me they support me and all of us together can stay clean and live a good honest life drug free.

I am truly grateful for The No Matter What Club, my home group. They also say the program works if you let it. My 37 days of clean is a good start and it is in no small part due to my home group who took me in.

Thanks for the opportunity to share!